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Welcome to Heal Yourself, Change Your Life. My name is Brandy Gillmore, and after recovering from my own life-changing injury, it's become my mission to share with others the same discoveries I made that changed my health and my entire. Our minds are truly incredible. The placebo is proof of this. Each week I will take this simple awareness to a whole new level.
I will even coach live callers to free themselves of physical pain using only their mind, and then I'll provide you with a combination of practical and spiritual insights that you can use to master your mind, your emotions, and your. To help you heal your health yourself and your life.
Let's begin.
Hello and welcome. It is so wonderful to connect with you. I just love that you are here. Continuing to expand your mind, your energy, your consciousness, your healing. I just love it, and I just love today's episode. You know, every episode just has its own unique, powerful insight, and that is so true with today's episode in a variety of different ways.
So I just, I love it. And I love it. If you recall from the last episode, we were working with Sarah, our beautiful volunteer. And if you recall, we had been talking about some feelings of, you know, feeling like the more successful she is, that people won't like her and, and also some embarrassment and some shame towards family and, and a variety of different things.
Now, What was beautiful, and so many things are beautiful about Sarah, but one of the things, just she had so much ambition to want to live a full life. You could just feel it emanating from her. And yet she also tired, you know, every moment she was awake and even an hour out of bed, you know, feeling exhausted and tired and waking up tired and just feeling that constant state of fatigue.
And something that she's going to want to do is, of course, step into her power and shift that, but also really tapping into her gifts or her strengths. if you will, and making the most of them. Cause we all have strengths. And so often people are overlooking the very strength that they have to take their life to the next level.
And you know, they're overlooking their strength or undervaluing it, or not really using it, not even looking at it as a strength. Instead, the wounding taking over and it's actually making them weak when they have so much strength. That's buried, and I know that may seem a little confusing, but as we dive in, you'll see exactly what I mean.
You know, sometimes gifts aren't as obvious, and by the way, I have also worked with plenty of people who have made the most of their gifts, but were still bogged down by their wounding in a major way. And so, again, this may sound a little confusing going into, but as we unpack it. You'll start to see with more clarity what it is that I mean, and look at some gifts maybe in your life that you might be overlooking.
All right, so that said, let's go ahead and dive back in with beautiful Sarah, where we left off last time. From her session we were working last week if you recall we were working with she had been feeling a lot of shame towards her family and a lot of embarrassment feelings and That's where we left off is that there was a lot of hurt going on from her family.
And so that said, let's go ahead and dive in with Sarah. Here we go.
And what if you don't need to run away? And what if you don't need to be embarrassed or ashamed or any of that? What if you could actually just be amazing? Well, I was just going to say, I don't know if I should go there because I know I should be, I want to breathe into this new belief, but, um, I guess I have some anger towards them.
from, like, what I had to go through, and I don't know how much of that is tied in Bingo. to, to the shame. Okay, and if I ask you, so we're, we're going down the rabbit hole, it says, uh, if I ask you why you have, um, why so much anger towards them? Well, because they, I mean, they couldn't take care of me, so it's, you know, they, they've basically neglected me, um, so I'm actively trying to heal from that.
Okay. And I'm going to ask you just for a moment to breathe, and if I ask you, who ended up taking care of you?
Um, well, kind of a mix between my aunt, my grandpa, and then my mom, most of the time if she was able, and my dad was kind of in and out, so like a combination of people. Okay. And I'm going to ask you just for a moment to breathe,
and First things first, bingo. If I ask you how strong and independent you are, zero to ten, what would you say? Ten. Ten. And if I ask you how much you like that about you, what would you say? Ten, I like it. Right, you love it about you, right? Yes. Totally. Now, I want you to picture just for a moment that you had a mom who was there every minute of every step along the way, every moment of every moment of every moment for you.
If I ask you What level of independence do you feel like you would have today? Not, not too much. Okay.
All right, so let's go ahead and pause it just for a quick moment for two specific things. You know, first and foremost, as I'm working with Sarah, you'll hear me say several times, you know, well, you could end up being codependent and you can see how she's like, no, no, no, no, no. Right. Because she's so proud of being independent and used to being independent.
It's a strength that she has where she does rely on herself and, and does want to be that way and, and feel that way. And of course, as you'll see coming up, it's a balance, you know, there's certain quote unquote gifts that she got out of it. And by the way, if you think about my injury, you know, I was injured almost seven years in extreme pain, you know, I was a mess and in fear and I mean it was very, very hard I got a gift from that, you know, I took what was life changing and took that and, and turned it into a gift.
And so when you do identify something that has been helpful and what that strength is and you use it to create a better life, it can be powerful. I mean, if you think about it again, you know, my injury. I got better, and then I used that to create a better life. I used what I learned about my mind, about energy, about all of that.
Now the last thing I ever thought I would be doing is what I'm doing now. You know, I never thought I'd be helping people. But that's because, you know, when I got better, it was years ago. So it was before the awareness even, wasn't even on my radar that, Hey, you could do this. You know, it wasn't a, it wasn't a thing.
Um, I just ended up doing this because I was on this, Journey to just show people, Hey, we're amazing. We're amazing. And so from that, it just kept growing. And so, and just wanting to help people and say, wait, we don't have to be stick. We don't have to be stuck. Look at our mind's work. And it was that place of just wanting to show people and help them to get results.
And no, I never even saw it as doing it as a career or anything like that. It was just like, Hey, let me, let me do this. Point being is that I extracted the good from that and used it. To his fullest. Now, could I have been in a place where I said, you know, I can't believe so and so did this and my accident and blah, blah, blah, and it was seven years and I lost this and I lost that and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
Like I could have absolutely been in that place, but I didn't. I mean, that was a choice. That was an absolute choice. Could I have stayed there? Could I have been in that place? Absolutely. I made a choice not to. And let's be honest. If I stayed there in a place of feeling upset, and like, but this is hurting, and the pain, and the problems, and, and the this problem, and that problem, and, now I can't pay my bills because I'm on disability, and this, that, the other.
If I'd have been in that place, I'm sure everybody could have had absolute compassion for my situation. A ton of it. But where would that have gotten me? It wouldn't have gotten me the change that I needed to make. Which was, you know, letting it go, being willing to change, then being willing to really embody the strength.
And of course, I want to emphasize, it is never about burying your emotions, or bypassing them, or pretending they don't exist. And I'm going to break it down and, and instead look at what you do want to do. And because all the time people think, Oh, well, wait a second. What about childhood wounding and this, that, the other.
And I will talk about that, but not in this place right now. The point is right now. is really about looking at your strength. And, by the way, I mentioned in the very beginning of the episode that I have seen people before, and worked with them, who stepped into their strength, who got the, the strength from something, but also kept the wounding.
So, just to reiterate, it's not about Ignoring the wounding either because you've got to really, really release it. And for example, by the way, there was a beautiful woman that I worked with who was sent off to a type of boarding school at a very young age and was hurt and upset and felt unloved by it.
And at boarding school was able to get an incredible. education and go into a lot of really, really special classes in which she grew up and created a beautiful company that is still changing the world to this day in, in wonderful ways. It's great for the planet, made a lot of money, has had a lot of success, a lot of friends, learned to make friends and connection and social circles and all of these things.
And so the very gift that she got Also, she ended up feeling very, very unloved by her mom and her dad for sending her to boarding school. And so it was like, well, wait a second here, you know, look at, look at what it was and heal the part that's hurting for real, you know, really making that change. And so that's where we're going as we step back in with Sarah is looking at what is the strength and noticing that and being willing to look at that and then being willing to look at things.
and feel in a new way, to let go of the hurt, and also to step into the strength of it all, and see all of the gifts. Because, as you'll notice coming up, a lot of times there's more gifts than people really see. In the whole experience. And so that said, let's go ahead and dive back in with beautiful Sarah.
Here we go. I
probably, yeah, I'd probably rely on her too much or others. Okay. You get used to others doing for you or relying others all the time, right? Okay. . And would you be okay with giving that up about yourself to, to change that, to instead have had her there all of the time for you? No. What? No. . I, I don't think I would.
I, I like that about me. Oh. Okay, so you like the outcome of it, but you're mad about it still. Okay. Well, when you put it that way.
Okay. Yeah, that's a good way to look at that. Totally. Now, if you think about it. If you have the gift, like, I gotta be honest, growing up, my family was gone a lot, and there was a part of me initially that had thought like, hey, they should have been around more often, but then I looked at it and I was like, you know, actually, if they were, who would I B, I actually kind of really like who I am.
Nevermind. We're good. Like, that makes a lot of sense. Yeah. Okay. So what's the problem? I mean, when I look at it that way, there's really no problem. Um, I just had it looked at it that way. Okay, great. Yeah. It's actually, you know, I, and I, and I've done a lot of Forgiveness work and I, I realized that like, the way that I grew up, you know, I'm very grateful for many things, but I just hadn't looked at that like that particular, um, perspective of being independent.
So that's, that's really nice. Right. I mean, but wouldn't it be great if you were codependent? Yeah, I mean, look at how much that has shaped who you are.
All right. So let's go ahead and pause it just for a very quick moment. You know, I do want to highlight if you are somebody who is codependent, make sure not to judge yourself as with everything. There is a gift in that too. You can find different gifts of what the strength is and notice what that is for you.
Because all of the time, if you're willing to have an open mind and you can see things from a different way, you can see that we've each gotten different awarenesses or insight or strengths that if we use and we really tap into, it's They can help us to, of course, take our lives to the next level. And so I just want to emphasize that because I know we're talking about codependent, and the reason that I push on that is because clearly, you know, as you can see, like, it's just being codependent.
It's not vibing with her energy at all, and it's the last thing that she would want, and I get it. I understand. And just wanting to really emphasize If that's you and you are codependent, notice that and be willing to change that. Notice even the gift in saying, okay, look, I'm, I'm willing to change that.
I'm ready to change that. I'm ready to feel even more independent in myself and. This can be a great wake up call for that too. Said with love, said with so much respect. I got to tell you, by the way, you, if you saw how many of my old patterns that I've looked at and laughed at and said, Oh my God, I can't believe I had that pattern, you know, so I want to invite you To look at it, to laugh at it, to not judge it, to not criticize it, to just laugh, to just enjoy and be willing to truly be loving and kind to yourself, laugh at the pattern and be willing to truly transform it.
And so that's where we're going as we dive back in with beautiful Sarah. Here we go.
So kind of like this. With my whole injury and stuff. I could be mad about it and oh my god I missed out on this and that and blah blah. Wait a second I went through a certain period of time that made me need to grow Made me need to learn to be and do differently and think in a different way and change and it changed my entire life and I wouldn't take it back if I could and Don't get me wrong.
I wouldn't want to go back through it Right. But I learned and I grew. Right? Mm hmm. Okay. So, look at how independent and strong and an independent thinker and, and you're smart. Right? And, you would rather be codependent?
No. Okay, so this is the thing. By the way, let's think old and old and olden days. What age were kids out on the farm, or this, that, the other, working on the farm? Yeah, young. Young. Right. How old would you say? Pretty young, right? I mean, pretty young. And if you were old enough to carry stuff, you were helping out, you were this, that, the other, right
Mm hmm. Okay. And so if you think about it, like kids these days are like, but I need both parents there at every moment of the day. And I need supported here and I need supported there and I should have this. And I should like, and, and in between, I need supported with video, like when you stop and think about it for a moment.
Like that independence, that do, that be, that enjoy, that expand, that think for self, that, you know what I mean? We've, we've lost some of that because kids are now in school, you know, and then this and then that. It's just like some of that freedom to grow and be has been lost along the way, right? And we feel like if our parents weren't there 24 7, we somehow got gypped, right?
Mm hmm. Mm hmm. But what if you got a gift? Yeah, I definitely really like this perspective. Great. So I'm gonna ask you just for a moment to breathe. Okay. And are your parents there now? If you called them, if you wanted to connect with them, are they there? Yes. Okay. So what'd you lose other than an awesome opportunity to be codependent?
Okay, so I'm gonna ask you to breathe. Yeah, okay. Right? So if you've lost nothing, and not only that, but watch this. Growing up, the more time you spend around somebody, the more you kind of end up like them, right? So if I ask you, if you could redo it, would you have preferred to spend even more time with your mom so you could be more like her?
I mean, I love her dearly, but no. Exactly, right? And your dad, would you have preferred to actually spend more time with him to be more like him? No. No. Okay. So, kind of not too shabby. Here you are. Right. In a place where you get to create you, and you could stop being upset about what you feel like you lost, because maybe you didn't lose anything.
Right. Right? So, I'm going to ask you just for a moment to breathe. And by the way, if I ask you, zero to ten, how fatigued do you feel? What's your level? Zero to ten? Um, maybe like a 1. 5 or a 2. Bingo, that's what I have, it's about a 1. 6, so right, right there, so we're at the same, so notice you're doing this, right?
And by the way, bingo, if I ask you to close your eyes, and if I ask you how you feel about life and your energy towards life and doing things moving forward, um, if I ask you if you're feeling a bit more energized. Yes. Mm hmm. So I'm going to ask you just for a moment to breathe. And I definitely, though, think you should definitely be angry with them for not being more codependent.
Okay, and I'm gonna ask you just for a moment to breathe. And, okay, so everything has its both, like, its growth to it. Like some people, by the way, with your situation, you're going, Hey, well, I got this amazing gift of being independent and being able to think for myself and all this stuff. And, Now I need to be willing to see that for what it is, to shift my energy to see it for what it is, and to also then be in great relationship with relationships.
So that's going to be one of your things is going, okay, well, creating healthy relationships moving forward with success, with life. Let me, let me find that balance, right? Whereas, somebody else who may have grown up on the other side, who may have grown up extremely co dependent, might go, okay, well now that I've grown up, now let me figure out how I'm going to be independent, and I got to step outside of my comfort zone there, and start thinking in a different way, and blah, blah, blah, so everybody has their different area of growth, if you will, right?
Right. Okay. Could you be okay with yours? Yes. Right. And if I ask you how mad at it you have to be, what would you say? Well, that I'm confused about. Um, it makes sense what you're saying, but I, I attend like a 12 step, uh, fellowship for people, adult children of alcoholics, and they talk about how important it is to grieve, like, what happened, but I don't know, like, how important that is.
Okay, so based on what our, oh, sorry. Gimme one second. Um, bingo. I think the best way to summarize it is to say, okay, so if I ask you how long you've been grieving about it, well, for a while, I kind of just, so wait, how, how long would you say
Mm-Hmm. . I, Mm-Hmm. . Yeah. I mean, uh, maybe like subconsciously a long time. Okay. How many, guess how many years? It's hard to say because I forgave them. What would you say? Um, maybe 10. Okay, maybe 10, maybe a little longer, but okay. So if I ask you how that felt compared to If I said, Hey, everybody has their challenges.
Look at what you got. Look at the gift out of this. Okay. Develop yourself in these areas. And that's the way you want to look at it is in an empowering way to see what your gifts are, what you need to grow and develop about you and embody that. Which one feels better? Definitely. That definitely feels better.
Okay.
All right. So let's go ahead and pause the session right here. You know, first and foremost, I just love her. I mean, What a sweetheart, a great sense of humor and great personality, great self awareness, insight, strength, just beautiful, beautiful being. And I love what she just said, you know, that she's been doing forgiveness work for a long period of time.
And I got to tell you, I have seen people who have spent years, like 50 years, still doing forgiveness work, forgiveness work, forgiveness work on their childhood. And when they decided, okay, wait a second, let me just stop and look at this in a different way. That's when it became life changing, when they were willing to work with their mind.
in a different way. Now, I do want to say, I know, I'm sure that there are plenty of people who are going, but what about childhood wounding? What about childhood wounding? And because there's so much about childhood wounding and working on the childhood self and all of that, I'm actually going to do the next IQ episode.
on exactly that. So we'll talk about childhood wounding and how you'll want to work with it in a much different way than people realize. So it's not skipping over it, though it may feel like it right now. And I understand if you feel like that way, well, wait a second, we're just bypassing everything. I absolutely understand if you feel that way, but as you'll see, that's not what we're doing.
There's a, there's a different way of going about it. So we'll unpack that even more. But just like in working with Sarah, where I've said, you know, wait, let's slow down. Let's take in this piece of information. I want to do the same with you and invite you to look at this in your life and see what are the strengths you can find?
What are the gifts that you can find? in your journey. And by the way, you may not know yet, and that's okay. But even just looking at your past and saying, if there was going to be a gift from this, what could that be? And by the way, I also, I want to speak directly to something. I know that sometimes people will think that I move through emotions way too fast, just because a lot of people are used to spending years and years and years and years and years sitting with their emotions and processing them.
And it doesn't have to take long to really make a transformation, you know, making it health changing, life changing in so many ways and also changing the wounding. And you can see That, you know, because people are releasing pain. You can see that they're doing something right, you know, even if you think about Recently, you know, we've talked about Vicky, the woman who had had stage four metastasized cancer throughout her body, her breast, liver, lymph.
I mean all of that and is now cancer free with great blood work and of course she did that, you know. But point being is that you can see Real results. So, you know that we're really doing some type of real change to get those, you know, because I know that some people if you move through things too fast, they go, Oh my god, you must be bypassing and just burying emotions and all of that, but you can see from results There's more to it.
It's actually working. It's working at a deeper level. Even if you think about my results in my life, you know, you can see that, Hey, it's actually working. There's something that's actually working at a deeper level. than many people realize. There's more going on with the mind. And so on that note, just if you are feeling at all like, Hey, we're moving through it really quick, or what about her story and the stuckness to it and all of that.
And I just want to take you on the journey with me for a moment and have you look at this in your life. And again, On the next IQ episode, we will talk specifically about inner child wounding and inner child work because that is a topic and a question that comes up all of the time. So we will talk about that.
But first I want to invite you to look at your strengths or look at what could be a A gift out of this, even if you don't yet know what that is. And by the way, you know, if you think back to, you know, if you heard episode 9, then you know that, you know, my last doctor raped me, right? And ended up, he went to prison because he took pictures of it and all of that stuff.
And when I was going through that stuff, I literally told myself, you know what? I don't know what the gift is. All I know is I've got to lift myself and I know that, you know, if there's, there's got to be some type of gift. So let me just lift. And so maybe that is the answer for you right now. So I have moved through my own fair share of not fun stuff, okay, to come out to the other side.
In which case, you know, it's creating real shifts, making a real, real shift. change, but also in doing that, you know, being able to go, okay, well, what are my strengths? Let me step into those more. And you might be surprised at how they show up even now, you know, the work I do with the mind and healing and all of that, my previous experience in working with network engineering and operations and being really good at that has helped me out so much.
I mean, I probably wouldn't be able to do what I do without. That whole experience and that training, and doing that for years, and being good at it. It helped me to do what I do now so well. And so, my point is, is that Sometimes, the strengths that you have that you're not necessarily leaning into can help you in more ways than you realize also.
And so, that said, from this episode, I want to invite you to look at exactly that. Look at the positive. What is great about you? What are your strengths? What is the positive from your past? And, you know, the question I also just mentioned to Sarah is, I said, okay, well, yeah, there's other parts that you're going to need to grow of yourself.
You're going to need to, you know, maybe Grow the relationship side even more and get good at that. Okay, great. And being willing to do that, you know, because let's be honest, if you, if you're willing to just look at life and say, Hey, these are the areas I'm really good at. And you look at also the areas that you're not necessarily as good at.
And you say, okay, I'm just willing to grow. I'm willing to get better in these areas. and be really good with it. And of course, creating that change on the inside and also on the outside. And so I want to invite you to look at this. And I know this is for a lot of people, something that they've probably never even asked themselves.
I know a lot of times people get so caught up in looking at what they're not, what they're not enough at, what they're not good at, what shortcomings they have, what woundings they have, but not looking at their strengths. And so if you think about even with Sarah, where we started looking at what are the benefits?
What are the strengths? And then even having her embrace those things about herself and grow from there. It's a powerful awareness and powerful way to look at things, to actually really step into your best self, to be all you can be in this life and more, you know, it's just really beautiful. And so. On that note, I want to invite you to do that and feel that.
Take it in, allow the feeling to feel empowered. Okay. So it's just a truly beautiful feeling. And so on that note, also, I want to invite you to please do hit the share button on this episode. You know, share it with somebody you love, somebody you care about, somebody you don't even know. The more happy and healthy and empowered that every single person is.
in our world, the better this world is for all of us. So let's not leave anybody behind. It's time to make that change. And also, I hope you have a most wonderful, empowered, fabulous rest of your day. And I look forward to connecting with you.
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As more and more people become empowered, it really will change our world for the better. That is the point and the power of these demonstrations is to create a radical shift in our world consciousness by showing everyone what we are all capable of. And of course, each volunteer will really need to follow through to reinforce their programming, to maintain their results.
But the point. For you to see that you really can create rapid results in your health and your life if you really understand how to use your mind. You are incredible. And I do wanna be clear though, that most people will not get results this fast on their own. I make it look very easy because of the discoveries that I made.
You'll wanna remember that there's so much more going on in our minds at a deeper level than people. That said, if you wanna send me any questions or comments, come visit me on my website brandygilmore.com/podcast. And if you're currently experiencing physical pain and would like to be a volunteer on the show, you can sign up there as well.
Lastly, Please remember, if you do have any health issues, you won't want to avoid your doctors. Instead, you'll wanna continue seeing them and make it your goal to blow their minds with what you are capable of with your mind. Thank you.
